| ^u cant build a tolerance smokin weed... u might be smokin shittier weed and not gettin as high, but there is no tolerance involved in it...
but yo... i been goin thru the same shit rudebwoi, straight up i can relate to every word u said, esp the scarin myself with my own thoughts shit, lol. i been smokin on the daily for years now... and i used to fuck with some other shit too... but for real im at a point where i just wanna be done wit all this shit. my problem is that even if i go a whole day without smokin i gota smoke before bed jus so i can sleep, but really that shit jus delays my sleep.. its fucked up. really tho its jus become a ritual for me and i got the idea in my head that i wont be able to sleep and i get depressed if im sober. but on the real im jus makin my depression worse by continuin to do the shit... even when im chillin with my homeboys its like, are we smokin, drinkin, pills, or what? but that shit all deals with the people ive surrounded myself with and the state of mind ive put myself in. straight up i aint went a day without smokin for months, i got no idea when the last day was... and thats a bad thing.
but i dont know man, im goin thru the same shit for real...
like Deck said "I dont know why I chose to smoke cess, I guess thats the time when I'm not depressed, but Im still depressed, and I ask whats it worth? Ready to give up so I seek the Old Earth, who said workin hard can help ya maintain and learn to overcome the heartaches and pain" |